a decade gone by~

tonight at 10:33 pm

11 years ago

i held our first

we celebrated and welcomed a little life

two and a half weeks overdue

days felt endless

time was at a hault

night after night i dreamed of holding my baby

seeing his precious face

desires stirred constantly

wonder

curiousity of what life would be

this one

my first

calm

cautious

NON RUSHER

time taker

took his grand time

 i think could have stayed all cuddled up

in my warm tummy

his due date came and went

day after day

i hoped

i waited

I PRAYED

my doctor finally scheduled me to be induced

"call at 11:00pm and let them know you are coming in"

family gathered

sitting patiently

excitement swirling as the hours passed by

11:00pm

i picked up the phone

 "sorry all the rooms are full, call back in the morning"

i hung up

my family starring at the tears coming down my face

me~ tomorrow

i did not sleep

i tossed and turned

why me

morning came

i picked up the phone

ever so anxious

to hear the same words

"call back in a few hours"

hysterical

i was never going to see my baby

{right, like that would really happen, but boy oh boy did it feel that way}

a few hours passed

same story

i called my parents

me~ if they tell me one more time

i am just going down there and telling them

I AM IN LABOR

an hour passed

the phone rang

"did you have your baby yet??

haha, well kiddo

 if you want to have your baby come on down,

there is a room open"

me~ well i need to take a shower, get something to eat and then well we will make our way

"your such a smartass"

to end a grueling long story...

i arrived at 1:00pm

hooked up to wires needles tubes

and all sorts of gadgets

{baby's heartbeat kept dropping}

was given a lovely cocktail to get things going

{never ever do i recommend being induced}

by 9:oo pm

this wee little one finally decided to take some action

start moving his way down

slow and easy this one was

10:33 pm

a face i will never forget

a beautiful baby boy was ours

what a JOURNEY it was

and has been

time flies

is an 

UNDERSTATEMENT

moments i feel i've lost time

fumbling to find it

amazed

constantly

at how much he has grown

and who he is becoming

a perfect mixture of both

my husband and i

so on this day

i sit here

and

remember

 all that has passed before me

excited for all i have yet to see

A DECADE GONE BY
 in the blink of an eye

~bright birthday wishes upon him this day~ 

its 2:41 am~

2:41am

I Woke Up This Morning

5 years ago

my water had just broke

i sat straight up in bed

nudged my husband and said

"i think its time"

i stood up

scurrying for towel

changed my jammies

and started gathering our oldest toys

{at the time he was in l♥ve with these little action figures

every night we would gather them up and put them in the truck...

just to be safe and prepared

not so much this time...}

the day prior

 i had my appointment

begging my doctor

is there anything we can do

he laughed and said your still 2 weeks away

but i am oh so ready

well baby is not

go home, maybe walk, have a beer, take a bath...relax

my oldest and i left

we went to the mall

walked for what seemed like forever and a day

finally his poor little legs couldn't take anymore

mama can we go home now

we made our way

relaxed outside

papa came home

i said i was going to take a bath and just go to bed

i am really tired

no toys had been packed

though all bags waiting patiently in the car

if only i knew the surprise my one had

be careful what you wish for

you know what they say

even before conceiving

i knew in my mind

this time

i wanted all the surprises

the experience and excitement

of life happening on its own

{my first i was 2 1/2 weeks over due...induced}

we woke our little one

all in the car

made our trek down to the hospital

{40 min drive...crazy i am}

i will never forget the look on my childs face

me in a wheelchair

he by my side

half smile...half i don't know what the heck is happening look

by this time now

as i sit here and type

i was about a 6 or 7

labor was going quite smoothly

and all in a blink of an eye

9:25am

one wee little baby made his presence known

and soon my doctor was handing me

a beautiful screaming boy

its hard to believe

5 years

has gone by

how much he has grown

~Happy Birthday To My Wee Little One~