Eddie Vedder - Long Road {with lyrics}



an oldie but goodie

one i have carried with me

but kind of forgot about until recently

for some reason

it came back for a visit

with my mind and spirit

and it has been with me everyday since

heres to feeding your soul



and I wished for so long...
I cannot stay
All the precious moments...
Cannot stay
It's not like wings have fallen...
I cannot say
Without you something is missing...
I cannot say

Holding hands of daughters and sons
In their phase they're falling down
Down, down, down

I have wished for so long...
How I wish for you again

Will I walk the long road?
I cannot stay
There's no need to say goodbye

Oh, the friends and family...
All the memories going round
Round, round round...

I have wished for so long...
How I wished for you today

And the wind keeps rollin'
And the sky keeps turning grey
And the sun is set
The sun will rise another day

I have wished for so long...
How I wish for you today

I have wished for so long...
How I wish for you today
Will I walk the long road?
We all walk the long road



storm moon in bloom~

her light

calling out for thee

i know you see me

how could you not

please come and sit with me

during these nights as i continue to grow

feel my powers shining down on you

embrace the knowledge i seep unto you

understand the words that i wish to share

i am full circle

complete and round

full of energy

power and light

imagine nature

the flowers and trees

their roots sinking down deep into the earth

standing strong

holding their place

now

imagine yourself

a flower or tree

feel your placement

grounded and strong

balanced

you are cleansed

refreshed and revitalized

you are healed

you are anew

brightest of bright storm moon blessings

full moon dancing~

“There are nights when the wolves are silent

 and only the moon howls.”

George Carlin

one clear sky

paving the way

for one january full moon



it was as if she was calling

to each who would lend an ear

her light

gleaming through the window of mine

drew me near

i had almost forgotten that she was here this day

as i was busily hurrying about

though she had not given up

 her light kept calling

waiting for me to come out for a visit

there is nothing quite like

stepping out into the dark of night

pearing up

and seeing her all a~glow

~sigh~

and so it was

a piece of quiet time well spent

and blessings at hand

a class was soon to begin

{with all that happened last year...dancing came to an abrupt end

so my love surprised me once more with lessons just for me}

beneath the light of the moon~

May the blessings of light be upon you,

Light without and light within.

And in all your comings and goings,

May you ever have a kindly greeting

From them you meet along the road.

irish blessing



feb. 19

~one thing that will always be~



no matter where you are

no matter what you are doing

she will always come

she will return

waxing and waning

just as our lives do

reguardless of trials or tribulations

joyful or happy moments

she will never cease to rise and fall

she grows stronger day by day

and yet how quickly that time goes

for if you are not looking

before our very eyes

she slowly begins to slips away

she awaits for all to welcome her energy

open you arms

clear your mind

stand beneath the light of the moon

in my eyes she is not just for some

she is for each and everyone

when you were little

reguardless of faith or beliefs

i am sure at one point you looked up at her

a child

eyes full of wonder

you released your wishes hopes and dreams

giving all to this amazing sight you saw

 to me

today is no different

you have grown a bit taller

possibly created a life that you wished for long ago

but she has never changed

she remains

just as she was those years long ago

filling our nights

with the most delicate yet powerful light

she is there

renewing our spirits

revitalizing our soul

by absorbing her light

soaking up her powers

we become anew

is there not any thing more enchantingly beautiful

than this here piece of magic that lies within our sky

how something right before our eyes

 can grow ever so full

and then slowly slip away

sigh

did you see her last night

~did you stand beneath the light of the moon~

the wind will forever blow~

you are more than welcome to skip over this
that is written in italics

a very long post ahead...just a fair warning!!!

many have asked and seeked more indepth about what happened

and many of you have sent forth an abundance of love and light

kindly replying at the end that i need not reply
for that i thank you greatly

so i thought if one doesn't mind
 i would share a bit more here

yes my strength day by day is returning

but tired i still get

and pain i still have

that saturday i made my way to the e.r.

sitting in the passanger seat

looking at my love

and in the mirror seeing thee eyes of my littles

tears falling from my eyes

feeling as if this would be the last time i would see their beautiful faces

trying to grasp every breath i could take

deep i kept saying to myself

one more one more

my sister met us half way and i said to my littles

no worries

i will be home soon

i love you much and always

ok

as we drove away

i looked back once more

seeing the eyes of my oldest looking in wonder

my love dropped me off at the front door of the er

 i walked in

within mere minutes

i was taken quickly back to a room

and nurses where flying around me

sticking and poking me with all sorts of fun stuff

the doctor arrived

and i begged him for help

told him my chest felt as if it was being crushed

holding my throat and saying i was having a very hard time breathing

it felt as if my airway was being cut off

and my chest and back hurt with a constant  pain

and my left side is numb and tingling

he looked at my love and asked if i was stressed

my love gave a chuckle and said sure she is stressed just like all of us

i begged the doctor to help me and asked if it could  be a possible food allergy attack

anything...and asked him if he could give me benydryl or something...
i don't know what is happening

but i can hardly breath

he looked at my love and i
and said well we could do a lung x ray

but its probably not going to show anything

my love said just do something

a nurse arrived with some medicine
 and minutes later i was taken back for the x ray

only moments later from returning back to my little space in the er

the doctor walked through the curtain

looking at me with the most puzzled look

he said your lungs are filled with blood clots
i began to cry

you are being admitted to icu now

the words fatal death died had come out of the mouth of him

 and the nurses who were caring for me

 and escorting me to my room
 i would be staying in for an unknown amount of time

i was trying to stay calm

trying to ask questions

 each person that came in to see me

looked at me in the same crazy way

so to sum up a very long story

the nuero believes two years ago after my gallbladder surgery

i had a blood clot and possibly a stroke

over the last two years
they have continuedto fill my lungs with their presence

and saturday i had another stroke

the unknown is why
now with my blood tests coming back with positives

is this a blood clot disorder
 or something that has just gone undiagnosed for this long

building and building and finally coming to a breaking point

i am still waiting to here from the hematologist for an appointment

my doctor will be repeating a blood draw in one month as well

so for any reassurance i am alive
 and as well as well can be

the warfrin keeps me from having any new clots forming

so a bit of peace of mind right

once more
each of you
a gift in my life
and my familys

i have been overflowing with only goodness pouring out from you all


 

feb 17

saturday we went for a walk

big deal some might be thinking

but when you have been held up

not allowed much physical activity

it is a big deal

when your whole being craves this

yet can not attain it

frustrating

for me to finally be outdoors

breathing deeply

filling my lungs with fresh crisp air

was absolutely wonderful



each step was a wee bit slower

more cautious

aware

yet i was walking

being present in the very moment

tuning in to all that surrounded me

reminding me

how truly thankful one should be

for our gift of life and living

for being able to step out

 look a little deeper

explore the unknown

discover wondrous bits waiting to be seen

thankful
for life overflowing around me
 abounding

when i walked through the trees

i heard their whispers

felt their strength

i knew i was far from alone

and healed i would be

i realized my journey here was a far cry from over

many miles i still have yet to travel

this walk was my answer

my hope returning

my faith restored

that i can continue on

no mattter what lie ahead

pieces that await
 blocking the path

one can move such

and continue to carry on

the wind will forever blow

the leaves will dance gaily
swirling and tumbling
 gently down

though fallen

tis not their end

they are picked back up

as a gently breeze comes back through

and their dance begins again

faerwillow

words to ponder~

feb. 15



"The glory of friendship

is not the outstretched hand,

 nor the kindly smile,

 nor the joy of companionship;

 it is the spiritual inspiration

 that comes to one

 when you discover that

 someone else believes in you

and is willing to trust you

 with a friendship."

Ralph Waldo Emerson



a glimpse of my muse & a quiet full moon~

if you wish to look up

a quiet full moon has appeared

she has risen to her highest

grown to her fullest

her light is of its brightest

emanating hope to each and all

she lights the way

for those who are wandering

paving the footsteps to anew

a constant

never chosing who is deserving

she is for all

once more she is here

but not for so long

open your arms

quiet your mind

embrace her beauty

soak up the powers of her light

draw down luna

feel her in the palm of your hands

allow her to pass through you

re~energizing and renewing

faerwillow

~brightest quiet full moon blessings~



Jan. 19

i shared with you my drawing of one tarot card a day

and how i have been applying it to journaling

well it has not only been words

 that have seeped onto the pages



"she sees"

though she is not complete

she is a start 

i am one who can not work on

JUST ONE THING

i wander aimlessly sometimes

drifting from one piece to another

maybe i attempt to draw & paint

and awhile later

you will see me knitting or crocheting

and then off to try something else

many don't agree

and often ask me

 if i complete anything at all

and well my friends

i do i do i do

its just all in a matter of time!!!

anyways

i thought i would share

a glimpse of my muse

and where it has taken me as of late



who cares~

please do listen

it really is

~the sweetest gift~

dec. 23

sometimes just sometimes

i do wonder what my neighbors are thinking of me



i had set my alarm to see the eclipse

woke and well clouds were all to be seen in our sky

so back to bed we all went

morning came

remember i am one who wakes oh so early

i started our coffee

and happened to see luna across the street

in all her glory



now as you've also come to know

i am who can hardly resist a moment

especially one like this

to be with my camera

and go away with myself

in the wee early hours of yesterday morn

i walked outside

and stood beneath her light

all was silent

all was calm

i could not have asked for a more peaceful moment

i began snapping my pictures

becoming lost

moved by her beauty

time had come to a stand

and there seemed within me

 that nothing more mattered

until i hear a door open

seems my flash raised some concern

my name is called

and my neighbor yells across the street

her: "what are you doing this early in the morning"

me: "oh just taking pictures of the moon"

she just stood there looking across the street at me

and then turns her back and says

her: "uh... ok"

as i stood there

in the deep dark of the day

i laughed at her dismay

turned my head back up to the sky

and all in a moments time

the clouds came rolling back in

so this day

i say let loose with your muse

footloose and fancy free

who cares if

no one else understands

but you

hehehe

celebrate the season...nothing but a bounty of blessings~

~YOU ARE NOTHING BUT PURE MAGIC~

your words prayers blessings and wishes you have sent forth

well they were heard loud and clear

my grandfather

...ALL TEST CAME BACK...

he passed with flying stars

doctor said "keep doing what you are doing"

so once more

I COULDN'T

 THANK EACH ONE OF YOU

ENOUGH

dec. 22

yesterday

the season was celebrated

packages both near and far

were sent and recieved from one another

i am touched deeply by how many chose

 to partcipate in this with me

and i thank you greatly

for helping it come to be!!!

wendy and i exchanged ornaments

is she not the sweetest of faeries you have seen

I SIMPLY L♥VE HER

miss e and i exhanged 3 gifts with one another

sweet treats to tempt me

beautiful bits wrapped

and the intoxicating scent that came from this soap

sigh

oh my goodness

DELICIOUS

and a box filled with bits to soothe my soul

avie and i also exchanged 3 gifts

inside were
elemental gifts i will forever treasure

truly beautiful each piece
especially her faerie lantern sent forth
l♥ve

sara had hosted a tea exchange swap

do you see what she has created

a wonderful mixed media piece

made from her heart

l♥♥♥ve l♥♥♥ve l♥♥♥ve

there is nothing more precious than a handmade gift

 such fun filled bits

 to challenge my creativity and mind

i can't wait to sit with my tea

and play throughout the day

linda and i shared the book exchange

she went above and beyond

not just sending one book for a wee little

or one for a wee older

but the magical number 3 came our way

and then she slipped this surpirse she created in

oh how i l♥ve thee so very much

on the back she shared

"1921 published harpers magazine"

"when mother goose dust of the moon

you know it will be snowing soon."

could this not be anymore perfect!!!

without her even realizing or being aware

our living room decor is white neutrals and black

to each and everyone of you i thank you greatly for these gifts you have blessed me with

for your kindness and mostly for our friendships that have come to be

nothing could be greater

than the gift of such

FRIENDSHIP

to all who celebrated in this seasonal swap

A HUGE THANK YOU TO YOU AS WELL

FOR MAKING THIS

 BIT OF MAGIC COME TO BE

and to all of you

i hope your winter solstice yule first day of winter

was that of only moments you will forever savor

to the days of winter that are of now

enjoy the silent

the still

the quiet

allow your spirit to rest

and be nourished in these days

be comforted by the short long dark days

rejoice in knowing one day soon

the light will be shining brightly again

and we will all awaken

revitalized

and

renewed

~only my brightest of blessings

 i send forth to each of you~

in the coming days i will be linking each to this who participated so you can all see what was gifted