a decade gone by~

tonight at 10:33 pm

11 years ago

i held our first

we celebrated and welcomed a little life

two and a half weeks overdue

days felt endless

time was at a hault

night after night i dreamed of holding my baby

seeing his precious face

desires stirred constantly

wonder

curiousity of what life would be

this one

my first

calm

cautious

NON RUSHER

time taker

took his grand time

 i think could have stayed all cuddled up

in my warm tummy

his due date came and went

day after day

i hoped

i waited

I PRAYED

my doctor finally scheduled me to be induced

"call at 11:00pm and let them know you are coming in"

family gathered

sitting patiently

excitement swirling as the hours passed by

11:00pm

i picked up the phone

 "sorry all the rooms are full, call back in the morning"

i hung up

my family starring at the tears coming down my face

me~ tomorrow

i did not sleep

i tossed and turned

why me

morning came

i picked up the phone

ever so anxious

to hear the same words

"call back in a few hours"

hysterical

i was never going to see my baby

{right, like that would really happen, but boy oh boy did it feel that way}

a few hours passed

same story

i called my parents

me~ if they tell me one more time

i am just going down there and telling them

I AM IN LABOR

an hour passed

the phone rang

"did you have your baby yet??

haha, well kiddo

 if you want to have your baby come on down,

there is a room open"

me~ well i need to take a shower, get something to eat and then well we will make our way

"your such a smartass"

to end a grueling long story...

i arrived at 1:00pm

hooked up to wires needles tubes

and all sorts of gadgets

{baby's heartbeat kept dropping}

was given a lovely cocktail to get things going

{never ever do i recommend being induced}

by 9:oo pm

this wee little one finally decided to take some action

start moving his way down

slow and easy this one was

10:33 pm

a face i will never forget

a beautiful baby boy was ours

what a JOURNEY it was

and has been

time flies

is an 

UNDERSTATEMENT

moments i feel i've lost time

fumbling to find it

amazed

constantly

at how much he has grown

and who he is becoming

a perfect mixture of both

my husband and i

so on this day

i sit here

and

remember

 all that has passed before me

excited for all i have yet to see

A DECADE GONE BY
 in the blink of an eye

~bright birthday wishes upon him this day~