~EMERGE...embark...EMBRACE~

 

take a deep breath

this is going to be a bit long...winded

somewhat of a hello and goodbye

but don't worry its not a bad thing

simply
a new chapter

i had spent much of 2011

at home

pondering

my days, my thoughts

my wishes, my hopes,

my needs, my dreams

pretty much my life

many days i thought of walking away

from this little place i created some time ago

simply walking away

no goodbyes

just closing it

...then...

i would have days when we as a family

or i were doing something

and the

i can't wait to share feeling

burned ever so strong

and yet...i did nothing

it is

BECAUSE

of each of you

 that i have allowed this place to remain

whenever i was ready to call it quits

ironically

one of you would send some inspiring words

a letter or card

and that flame that dully remained

would begin to burn a bit brighter

i have realized and accepted these past months

i can not bring back

what has been lost

but

 i can

 EMBRACE

what i have at this moment

and so with all this ramble above

what i am trying to get at

what i am trying to say

is

i feel compelled to share with you

ME

...WHY...

you may ask

why now

well just as a new season has changed

so to have my intentions

i am ready to

EMERGE

from the shadows

the quiet

the stillness

that has been

i have thought of this for a long time

how people can come together
and support someone they
 REALLY
 do not know

then i think...

{my love thinks i do too much thinking...maybe thats my whole problem...

me needs to stop thinking...hehehe}

but you do know me, for me...just that

you have read my thoughts and seen the world through my eyes

it's just that most have no idea as to
 WHOM
 the face or name
 is behind such

i write today

because i

kind of as a thank you

 for all you have gifted me

feel the time has come to move forward

to

 EMBARK

on new journeys
new roads

new paths

which brings me to this

i have struggled
not sharing this part of my life
 with my family and friends

when i started
it was a safe haven

anonymous as possible

i wanted a place for me

and no other that directly surrounded me

i enjoyed coming here and sharing in my days
and slowy i shared a bit more here and there

and without realizing what was really happening 
so many precious friendship were forming

well you have all brought comfort to my life

you have inspired me from the very beginning

 and helped keep me motivated

now my wings are ready for a wee bit more

they are ready to spread a little wider

fly a little freer

and i do hope you will come along

my hello is

~ME~

Faerwillow as you have come to know

hi...hello...how do you do

my name
as some already know is

Brandi

my goodbye is

 faerwillow...sigh...the name will be gone

{though you are welcome to call me what you wish}

with all this
leads me to
my intentions i have for 2012

i am ready to
EMERGE
from the shell i have had covering me
EMBARK
on new adventures that have been patiently awaiting
&
EMBRACE
all that will come to be

can you guess what my 3 little words for the year are

to
 2012

may it be bright & blessed for each of you