feb. 2
this morning i sit here
trying to type and share with you all
my saturday morning
took a unexpected turn in my road
i started feeling faint
tingling on my left side
sick to my stomch
after trying to shake it off for awhile
i had my husband take me into the er
long story short
all my pain for the last few years
the problem was found
pulmonary embolism
or otherwise known as blood clots
after hours of tests
they finally did a lung and throat cat scan
and it showed both my lungs
have blood clots lining the outer parts
so here i am after a four day adventure and stay
my life and how i once lived
will and has all been changed
i will be on blood thinners for the first six months
and then retested to see if this it is short term
or a life long event for me
i am sorry this is short
but very tired my friends
just thought i would share
as many have asked if i was ok
i thank you all
for your kindness support and blessings
and apologize i will not be around
to visit quite yet
as i once did before
as time i need to get back to feeling myself
~i wish you all a wonderful day ahead~
44 comments:
faerwillow..hugs and hugs, please know that you are in my thoughts and in my heart..and I'll be thinking of you amd wishing much light ad healing for you..hang in there, keep spirited and stay well..you are a special lady and I hope you feel bright and sparkly soon.
hugs!
Victoria~
Faerwillow, I'm so sorry about your health and the challenges that you're facing. I'm sending lots of healing blessings to you and know that you're loved and please take good care of yourself!
Please take care of yourself I will keep you in my thoughts and blessings <3
oh my goodness!!!
oh this is so frightening....that can be so serious.
i'm just glad you're still with us...rest and be well and i am sending you so much love and light...
holding you tightly in my heart...
xoxoxo
Oh honey bunch! ::hugs:: You will get through this!
Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. You will get through this. (((Hugs)))
Mary
may blessings and bright wishes find their way to you dear one!!!
will keep you in my prayers.
Thank the Goddess that at least now they know what the problem is and can treat it! I know it's a serious condition but untreated, it's even more serious. So I'm glad you've been diagnosed and will be on blood thinners. Hugs to you -- rest and take it easy -- be gentle with yourself.
I love you so much and just knew something was going on because you are always spreading your sunshine. Please know I will be sending healing thoughts, light a candle each day for you and your family. Brightest Blessings sweet spirit, The Olde Bagg, Linda
I'm wishing for the days when you'll be here again, feeling much more rested and at peace...until then, know that we are all holding you in our thoughts and are relieved to hear that a game plan is in the works :)
I'll think of you easily and often...sending smiles and warmth your way!
Cam
Dearest Faerwillow...I am sorry to hear you are unwell, but please know that you are in my thoughts. Be kind to yourself and get better soon x
My dearest friend, I am so so sorry ... my thoughts and heart is with you. Take care and I do hope so much that your health can be fully restored. Big hugs, xx.
Lovely Faerwillow, what a tough path you are on right now but keep faith that all will improve beautifully and so it shall. I'm sending you my brightest blessings and so do the wee folk ;) xxx
Now your uphill battle is on the flat easy stretch!!! Happy to hear the doctors finally discovered the problem!!Rest and get well soon- your Pay it Forward package was mailed yesterday :>)
Oh,my...I am so sory for you,my beautiful friend...
Please,please be carefull!
It´s realy important to pay more attention for you helth and going on with you enchanted life and with you wonderful familie,wich are also so,so upset...
Much warm thoughts to you,
LOVE,
***Violetta***
Oh honey, I can't imagine the fear you must have experienced. Hopefully the diagnosis gave you comfort in just knowing what has been causing all of this. Rest rest rest, take your medication and do whatever it is your body is asking of you right now.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
sending healing thoughts your way. I hope the diagnosis has helped. At least now you know what it is. Blood thinning treatment isnt so Bad. I take warfrin and am doing ok on it. Hugs Sara
Dear Faerwillow,
You have been in my thoughts for the past few days!
I am so sorry to hear your worries about your health. You are such a lovely lady and always so kind. You have plenty of rest and healing energy from us all. I hope the treatment works well for you.
Much love to you dear friend.
Jo. xxx
oh my, oh my, i am so thankful this diagnosis has been pin pointed. your life has been saved.
new paths can be challenging, but i am of the mind, having followed you for over a year, you will take lemons and make lemonaide! new paths can shine light on different vistas that will help others!
you are strong and creative and i know this will shine out your best qualities. after the shock and deciding how to deal....you will still be you.
sending love and light and request to the universe for healing, dissolving of the clots in a safe way.....sending energies of comfort and peace from the source of your beliefs!
sending love, prayer and a ((hug)), magnolia
Dearest Faerwillow...As I sit here and think of how inspirational you are for others who visit your blog each day in Love, I am one of them, :)
I am reminded of the word 'inspiration,' which means taking in the Breath of God, to inspire...
Having said that then I see all these inspirational Breaths of God from those who truly do Love you and since God is Love, I send you Healing Inspirational Love!!! As do all of your precious friends here. You are surrounded by That Holy Light...
I say Bravo! The Doctors were inspired to finally find the source of your problem and now you are well on the road to recovery, Dear One!
I send wave after wave of Healing Energies your way and soft gentle breezes to release the 'ick' housed in your body...let the breezes carry them away.
Standing in Gratefulness that the Blessed Universe has heard all prayers in your regard...
In Divine Love..
Akasa
I see you as healed and perfect as you will be soon. Love, light, blessings and hugs your way.
My dear sweet friend, I feel very sad to hear your news. Health is the one thing that keeps us going and I'm so sorry to know you are having this condition. Please keep the faith that you will get better soon, I always think that good positive thoughts are the best medicine.
My prayers to you.
Many hugs, oxox
Oh, my dear Faerwillow! Please be assured that I am holding you oh so tightly in my thoughts and prayers, circling you with many healing blessings too. May Peace continue to stand sentinal in your heart, soul and mind... fending off all fears and doubts. Know that you are loved, dear one... so precious and unique.
Rest well and may light shine brightly and steadily even though all around may seem dark and uncertain.
hugs xxxxxx
although I am sorry that you are under the weather I am glad to know that you have finally found the answers to the questions you have sought in regards to your health. I know your family is there for you and know that your blog friends are as well.
Even in your absence you will be thought of often and warm wishes and blessings will continually flow your way. Take care of yourself and visit when you can... blessings and hugs to you and yours.
Oh, my thoughts are with you! My goodness - what a scare!!!! I am sooooo very thankful they caught the situation in time to help you. And I will pray that you return to full health very soon! I know that you are in good hands and have much love and support coming to you. xoxo Theresa
Blessings to you...I know how scary this can be, I'm hopeful you obtain some sense of peace with the diagnosis; I too hope it's treatable and you feel much better soon. We will miss you and I'll continue checking back for updates. All the best to you...Sheila
oh girl. on the one hand, what a relief to finally KNOW. On the other...... well this sucks. All the best to you, definitely will be thinking of you and sending you healthy vibes. My cousins body just healed her cancer!!! the body is an amazing thing. Be strong and take care of you.
faerwillow I am thinking of you and sending you love and light. Look after yourself and rest well dear friend. xx
lots of hugs headng your way. Please please do look after yourself, take it easy and get back to feeling brighter very soon x x x Life certainly has a way of chucking unexpected things your way. I hear from my 39 yr old friend last week who had had a stroke ...... unreal.
Please please keep well rested we will be here wen your back :)
Sweetheart, I've had a busy week and just stopped by and found your message here. I'm so sorry, you must be feeling so many strong emotions mixed in with the fatigue and physical discomfort. As a mother of young children, and a human in general, I imaging fear is present, and a longing for good health and life as you knew before you started to feel unwell an before this diagnosis. Perhaps I am projecting a bit, I know that is how I felt when I was dx'd with different dis-eases over the years.
Rest well swell sweet friend. I offer these metta blessings to you, they help me when I am feeling frightened, exhausted, ill:
May you feel safe.
May you feel happy.
May you feel healthy and strong.
May you live with peace and ease one precious breath at a time.
I'll be holding you in my heart in my daily healing prayers. Know that you can write to me privately any time when you have the energy, and if you just want to connect.
xo
Laura
oh, my, the word swell crept in between sweet and well...a linguistic time warp perhaps? or a swelling of love for you from across the ocean.
you may be temporarily side lined but we will not forget you!
there are other priorities right now! take care of you!
know that you are in my thoughts and prayers!
sending love, magnolia
My dear friend,
I was just thinking of you last evening, it is funny, but that is how my gift works sometimes. Something will be going on with a person, and they will pop into my head, usually with the question, "are they ok?" Now I know why, as I wasn't doing anything that under normal conditions would have made me think of you. I will say in my experience it has always worked out to be good in the end. so take that however you wish to.
PE's can be fatal, even just one. a lot of times they were have no choice but to surgically remove them, since you have many is that something the doctors are thinking of. Did they say how a gal as young as yourself ended it up with so many? Often times a woman will get them after some form of surgery below the chest... I know you had your GB out but that is high for what I am talking about, usually intestines or womanly parts or legs etc. When I had my knee replaced, I kept getting pain behind the knee, they USed my legs 4 times before I went home just to make sure I didn't have one. (the pain continued for months and became a burning sensation that went all the way down into my foot...that is how they found out I had Lumbar spinal stenosis.
At any rate, please, PLEASE go to the nearest BIG CITY to get a second opinion when you are feeling a little better.
NOTE: know this, for PE's the gold standard of imaging tests is NOT a CT scan, it is a Nuclear medicine scan called a VQ scan. I highly recommend you push for one once feeling a little better and your fear level is down, as a Medical imaging Tech, this is what I would have you do if you were a family member, seriously!!
My love and light are with you, sending healing positive energy your way!! Susan
and a healing prayer:
Goddess of the Earth,
Mother of all.
Hold and comfort FaerWillow
and let her not fall.
Be for her, a strong heart beating
as right now her strength is fleeting.
Be for her children
an imagination of fun
so they will be busy
and bother her none.
Bring healing and knowledge
to those of her care
and right by her side
be with them there.
God of the Sky,
Father of all.
Be a rock for faerWillow's love
so he stands steadfast and tall.
Allow extra energy and time
so home and children can stay in line.
Take away his fear, he can not afford it
He needs to be the voice of comfort,
positive thoughts and words of wit.
Goddess of the Earth, mother of all.
God of the sky, Father of all.
I am reaching out to you,
Please heed my call!
Oh my, get well soon my friend. We are all thinking of you and sending you the warmest wishes. Take care of yourself and we'll see you again when you are better. Love and hugs to you.
xxx
I am sending light and blessings your way.....you will be in my thoughts. We all miss having you here....please take care of yourself....I am glad that they finally figured out what was going on and now they can treat it.
Oh sweet, beautiful woman. I can only imagine the mixed feelings you are having at this time. Relief to have an answer, and well...so many others with what that answer brings. Please try to remain strong and positive minded, but don't wall your emotions up. Cry when you need to, and of course laugh and still shake those hips and listen to the chime your dance sings.
I, like so many others, will be sending healing blessings in your direction. As well as speaking to the trees and the other plants whose slumber is drifting ever lighter, asking them to carry their healing song up to you.
Love, hugs, and sparkly moonbeams.
~Dandelion Dreams
I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this! I hope for the best possible outcome and I hope that you are resting and taking care of yourself. I am sending lots of good and healing thoughts your way. Big hugs, Lauren
sweetness~ I am so sorry to see this post and that you are facing health challenges. I am a terrible blogging buddy, with limited time to check on my favorites so I didn't know. I will have to google and read about this, my mind won't rest unless I understand. I pray the blood thinners will give you comfort and perhaps shrink the tumors? Follow all the doctors orders and REALLY take care of yourself. Not the pretend take care of yourself that most of us do! Sending you love and get well wishes galore, imagine a plate of the prettiest tea cakes iced in white with pale blue swirls on top and a cup of your favorite tea...I send these to make your day brighter, to let you know I'm thinking of you!
Just reading this now - I wandered by because I was thinking of you....
Lighting a candle for you, and sending you much love and healing energy. I know that with your beautiful spirit and attitude, all will be well.
thinking of you and sending you loving healing energy right this minute NOW♥
I simply must stop in and say you are in my thoughts and prayers.
sending love and a ((hug)), magnolia
our blogging social network of friends step up to plate, of caring and doing what we can from a far, to be a true friend. i am amazed and i love it!
you have given so much, i feel i "know" your heart, the goodness of karma will return to you!
blessings and i look for all good things to settle in your life and set things right. it can be happening, even if we do not "see" it right away.
sending love and a ((hug)) magnolia
we never know what will happen but God is here for all of us. He can give us strength and we can pray for you to get the med. help you need as well as many thoughts of concern. God Bless rose
FW-thanks for reaching out to us and letting us know how you are going. Looks like you are making a bit of progress - even getting a clearer picture of what challenge you need to address is good. The positive healing vibes continue to make their way to you from our mountain home. Go well and progressively become well. B
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