and it was beautiful~

“As we let our light shine,
we consciously give other people
 permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence actually liberates others.”
Marianne Williamson


dec. 31

all good things must come to an end

and so just as quickly as the snow had fallen
mr. sun came way and melted it just as fast
  

another year gone by

often i do wonder
how much faster the days could and will pass

as each day that comes
seems to go by a bit quicker than the one before

it had not hit me much

thinking or pondering
 about this year coming to a close

i had not been thinking about

the beginning middle or end of such

you could say i was a bit oblivious

as to what was creeping its way to surface

until the day before christmas eve

it was that morning that it hit me

a call from a loved one asking what they shall do

without a thought in my mind

thinking twice about what i was going to say

i told them

"you have one chance to live this life

so live it as you wish"

"i can not make a decision reguarding what is the right or wrong thing to do

only you can decide that"

it was then as i hung up the phone

LIBERATING

the condition in which

an individual has the ability

 to act according to his or her own will

LIBERATING...came to me

out of the clear blue yonder

my word that would be

i had not been looking

seeking

or even thinking about a word

but

LIBERATING

To set free,

{YES...YES...YES...FREE...OH I DO SO LIKE THIS

 & THE WAY IT SOUNDS & MAKES ME FEEL}

as from oppression,

confinement,

or foreign control

funny how things come our way

 when least expecting

a word chosen

a word i use often to guide or direct others

yet

a word

i hardly grasp

as often as i should

LIBERATING

able to act at will;

not hampered;

not under compulsion or restraint

now mind you

don't worry that i do not live for myself

make my own choices

or act upon my own free will

because i learned long ago

many lessons

that have brought me to my place

my path

how i choose to live this life

but

i can honestly say

i do not embrace

being and or feeling

LIBERATED

free from traditional social restraints

on a day to day basis

i do still shelter insecurities

harbor fear

all from what we are taught from long ago

it is these ties i wish to break

it is these emotions

that at times keep me from being  and feeling

LIBERATED

“It is not the simple statement of facts

 that ushers in freedom;

it is the constant repetition

of them

 that has this

 liberating

 effect."

Quentin Crisp

LIBERATING

that feeling you get when you attempt something
that once felt so far from your reach

and when you attain it

when you have succeeded in trying

you feel that emotion
 running wildly through your body

LIBERATING

i can remember long ago

standing in the mountains

so far from all those others who exist around me in this world

yet some so close

they could be mindlessly wandering as we had

i stood under the light of the moon

took off my clothes

and bathed in the river before me

DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT FELT LIKE

to stand before any and all who may be passing

not caring

i as i am

so far away from perfect

but accepting myself

loving myself

just as i was

not wishing or thinking i was different

i just stood there and soaked up a moment

i never thought would be

i was bare

exposed

naked to the world

and it was ok

mind you also

now i again am not saying

i want to live in nudity...hehehe

just fully embrace

that carelessness that one young girl had long ago

the feeling that it really didn't matter

the thoughts of another

carefree

it was then i was happy

and fully being as i am

and what a moment

i will never forget

LIBERATING

if ever it could be

it was there

i was holding it

i was carrying such word

 in the palm of my hand

and it was beautiful

so i shall only walk forward
into this new year
savoring life as it passes
and being
as
LIBERATING
as  i can possibly be

to each of you
i thank you for this past year
for being such bright lights in my day to day
for sharing together
for all of your love words and support
you have given to me
and i can only hope
 to continue sharing
many many many
more days here with you

only the brightest of  
new year wishes 
&
blessings
upon
you
 &
yours