there are a few
wonderful reminders
of life
floating around
the other day
i stumbled over to
Grace
who has been
inspired
inspired
by her mothers words
Marisa
"One of the tragedies in life is that we take for granted that
those we love the most will always be there,
only to wake up one day to realize
we have lost something valuable that can never be replaced...Marisa"
Grace
created a wonderful opportunity
for us all
to take a minute moment or two
to act upon our thoughts
no questions left behind
no words left unspoken
"If you are fortunate enough
to still have your mother with you,
take the time to write down the questions
you’ve always wanted to ask, and just do it...Grace"
~go over and take a peak~
then there was this post
from
Joycee
http://grannymountain.blogspot.com/2010/04/letter-sent-up.html
mind you when i was done reading
my eyes were stinging and tears were dropping
"If you could write a letter to someone you miss greatly,
what would that letter say? Joycee"
these women have brought real emotions here
reminders of how quickly time passes by
words we all take for granted
moments we may not savor as we should
they opened a wound within me
one i have tried to heal
little cuts have closed
but i am still left with one that refuses to seal
in our family we have lost many loved ones...
some as expected as can be
and others not so much
one...
my one
that refuses to heal
my grandma
AmyotrophicLateralSclerosis
snuck in her life
and
strangled her ability to communicate
before we could blink twice
our emotions were
RAW
foreign
frightening
as were Hers too
we all held back many words
so that we would not upset her
not in a bad way
just in an emotional way
none of us
including her
could get words out
so many words i am left with
words that were never spoken
set free
for her to know
words i have carried with me in my dreams
hoping even then the timing might work
then
another
blindsided by all
a phone call in the summer of 08
dad
(my husbands father)
stage 5 prostate cancer
maybe 6 months
how the hell do you grasp that?
well we jumped feet first
and spent as much time as we possible could
haulting our own life
to simply be with him
1 year later
we said goodbye
this time
filled with peace inside
no regrets
that couldn't be changed
we embraced what was
what we had
all that we could...
i stood with all my might before him
holding a legacy book we had been given
selfish that i wanted and needed a memory to hold
yet not thinking if he could
4 question are left answered
a book filled with nothing more
my lesson learned
do not wait till its their time
to ask all you wish to know
aren't we suppose to do this
while all are in good spirits
not when
time is slipping so fast between our fingers
and our hands are losing their touch
that we are grasping for anything and all we can...
so i leave you with this
not only a mother, a grandmother
a father or grandfather
it could be your aunt or your uncle
neice or nephew
cousin or friend
or
your chosen one
or
child
why wait to truly know
what really lies within
time and life
are
inevitable
we can not stop either from moving about
but we do have control
of what we wish to know
memories we need
words spoken
so today
i shall write a letter to thee
releasing all those words that never had a chance
to be spoken
to you three ladies
my
THANK YOUS AGAIN
then there was this post
from
Joycee
http://grannymountain.blogspot.com/2010/04/letter-sent-up.html
mind you when i was done reading
my eyes were stinging and tears were dropping
"If you could write a letter to someone you miss greatly,
what would that letter say? Joycee"
these women have brought real emotions here
reminders of how quickly time passes by
words we all take for granted
moments we may not savor as we should
they opened a wound within me
one i have tried to heal
little cuts have closed
but i am still left with one that refuses to seal
in our family we have lost many loved ones...
some as expected as can be
and others not so much
one...
my one
that refuses to heal
my grandma
AmyotrophicLateralSclerosis
snuck in her life
and
strangled her ability to communicate
before we could blink twice
our emotions were
RAW
foreign
frightening
as were Hers too
we all held back many words
so that we would not upset her
not in a bad way
just in an emotional way
none of us
including her
could get words out
so many words i am left with
words that were never spoken
set free
for her to know
words i have carried with me in my dreams
hoping even then the timing might work
then
another
blindsided by all
a phone call in the summer of 08
dad
(my husbands father)
stage 5 prostate cancer
maybe 6 months
how the hell do you grasp that?
well we jumped feet first
and spent as much time as we possible could
haulting our own life
to simply be with him
1 year later
we said goodbye
this time
filled with peace inside
no regrets
that couldn't be changed
we embraced what was
what we had
all that we could...
i stood with all my might before him
holding a legacy book we had been given
selfish that i wanted and needed a memory to hold
yet not thinking if he could
4 question are left answered
a book filled with nothing more
my lesson learned
do not wait till its their time
to ask all you wish to know
aren't we suppose to do this
while all are in good spirits
not when
time is slipping so fast between our fingers
and our hands are losing their touch
that we are grasping for anything and all we can...
so i leave you with this
not only a mother, a grandmother
a father or grandfather
it could be your aunt or your uncle
neice or nephew
cousin or friend
or
your chosen one
or
child
why wait to truly know
what really lies within
time and life
are
inevitable
we can not stop either from moving about
but we do have control
of what we wish to know
memories we need
words spoken
so today
i shall write a letter to thee
releasing all those words that never had a chance
to be spoken
to you three ladies
my
THANK YOUS AGAIN
11 comments:
This post made me cry. I lost my mother in 1998 from a stroke and my sister has stage IV lung cancer. This mother's day (as most are since my mother died) will be bittersweet.
Powerful stuff. You have a way with words that really make you feel. Thanks for sharing my Pulling on the Apron Strings with your readers.
wow! so beautiful.
beautiful
Having just lost my father to cancer, this post sums up everything I would say to the world. Don't let life slip by and hug your loved ones at every available opportunity.
You have quite a grasp on the reality of life and death...some younger people don't realize what it is to lose someone...
This is soo powerful! thank you!!! stumbled on you from inannastar's blog.. great reads!
Wow...such heartfelt words spoken with raw emotion but I am glad that I am not the only one still feeling this way even though it has been 33 years since my mother died and 12 since my Dad died. The feeling of regret that there is so much we don't know about their lives never diminishes over time. Although we tuck it away as we get on with our lives, it springs forward at pivotal times in our lives like marriages or having a child. On of the most emotional times in my life was when I turned 48 and realized that I had outlived my mother.
I agree, the time is right now, while our loved ones are well and vibrant with life to talk and ask our questions...don't take for granted that there will be time later on.
Oh, and thank you for leaving your wonderful comment on my blog:
http://marjean-gettingbacktobasics.blogspot.com/
...and for taking part in "Pulling on the Apron Strings:Interviews with Our Mothers at:
http://gracefulsimplicity.blogspot.com/2010/04/pulling-on-apron-strings-interviews.html
Also thanks for the link to Joycee's blog. I enjoyed reading her letters to a loved one post. I seems there are many of us that share the same frame of mind.
Beautiful post...A great reminder for us all not to take anyone for granted, cause you just never know.
Smiles
I am so sorry for your losses but glad to see through this you have been blessed with an abundance of love and happy memories prior to the losses and illness. You have used your time wisely and shoen that you care. Bright blessings to you dear lady xxJ
We all carry with us those painful moments when we lose someone dear to us. I have so many happy memories of my grandparents, my dad, my brother, aunts and uncles. It's healing somehow to write what is deep inside, you do it best! Come over to GrannyMountain...I blogged about you today!
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