if i could teach my wee littles one thing~

...NEVER say NEVER...

for if you do...you may be in for one heck of a journey

long ago i uttered the word

NEVER

At no time in the past or future;

 on no occasion; not ever

Not at all:

i would NEVER

there is NEVER

that would NEVER

i tried many things in my teenage years

that i probably NEVER should have

one day came

 and somehow

someway

my love and i had stumbled upon each other once more

in the days that followed were many

NEVERS i would have NEVER just so freely let go

mind you ...these were some good NEVERS

then when i knew quite clear that i had become pregnant

and NEVER didn't quite apply as it once did

i got married

and then divorced

and NEVER became a glimpse of my reality

i became a mama

and NEVER slowly seemed to fade away

i married

this time my love

how it should have been

and NEVER didn't seem to visit much

i became a mama again

and found

 there is not such a word in my life

 anymore

in between was

 pain and sadness

 happiness and joy

grief and sorrow

 bliss and love

but

if i can teach my little one thing in life

 it is to

NEVER say NEVER

it seems all i said my NEVERS about

became apart of my life

apart of my past

i have experienced

almost each NEVER

i vowed to not experience

and i often wonder if i had

NEVER said NEVER

about such

maybe they would not have come to be

we can plan our lives only to a certain extent

somehow someway

then the in between happens

the life we don't expect

the life we are not ready for

the life that was not in our plan

the life we had thought we chose so clearly to not come forth

the life we wish were not present when it arrives

yet we grab that life stuff

and do the best we can during those minutes and moments

we get through those life happenings

maybe clean or maybe with a bit of wounds

wounds that take time to heal

wounds we carry with us for a long time to come

wounds that lie dormant as we think

yet they are there right on the surface ready to tip over

 and drip on who ever is nearest

wounds that haunt us when we least anticipate

wounds that will heal

as long you

NEVER say NEVER

 we pick ourselves up and continue walking

hopefully learning a lesson or two

i had written this back in october

 and was reminded of these words

as i was having a conversation with a friend last night