last night just as i was about asleep..i here my littlest small voice...
"mama, is grandpa ever going to come back down from heaven?"
"no sweetie"
"why"
"well, it was grandpa's time to go"
'but she will be sad"
"yes, this makes her very very sad"
"is that whys she cries always"
"yes, that's why she cries always"
"do you see her crying alot"
"no"
"oh,....."
"night mama"
"night baby"
oh my heart aches at those moments, when trying so very hard to grasp life and death, all of us were very much apart of the final months and days and morning and services...but it is still such a concept to try and understand....for such a little one.
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so sad. my father-in-law passed away at the end of october and when we drive up to the house, my 2-year-old still says "pops? pops?" i don't know how you teach that kind of stuff; it's hard.
My boy is going through the loss of his deeply loved stepfather, a man who brought him up since he was 2, and he's now 6, so it's all those formative years.
It's so, so hard for them, and for us to watch.
s'me~ i am so very sorry for your loss of your loved one....words can never replace nor express the feelings that one is left with it...as much as we try to comprehend i don't think we ever understand fully or find the answers we are looking for...for me, it is believing that all in life happens for a reason and though we try hard to seek that reason it is not for us to know...my father always told me it is not goodbye but till we meet again...one day you and yours will walk together...gone but never forgotten.
life and death are difficult all the way around, I believe. My 48 yo beloved, after so many of his family have passed over the last few years, is still trying to make sense of it.
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