“It doesn't matter
which side of the fence
you get off on sometimes.
What matters most is getting off.
You cannot make progress
without making decisions.”
Jim Rohn
april 1
lately that is what i feel
i have been sitting on a fence
wishing to jump off
to feel my toes in the dewy grass
but alas i keep sitting
frustrating a bit
how not feeling well can change your world
i wake every morning
hoping for that surge of energy
to rush through my veins
wanting badly to jump
and move about just as i did before
we met with the pulmanologist last week
had another cat scan
which found a lymph node
in the center of my chest measuring 2cm
she will be watching it
and rechecking in 6 months, 1 year and then 2 years
making sure it has not grown
i have not allowed my mind
to wander down that path
only positive thoughts i have held
reguarding this finding
yesterday brought the cardiologist appointment who reassured me
the rhuematologist will bring forth the best answers to all of this mess
{which is april 14}
but she still needs to rule out things on her side
so yesterday was a stress test and i was sent home with a heart monitor
that i will keep for a month
each time i have chest pain
i push a little button
and it records what my heart is doing
sounds exciting right!
and then next friday i go in for a "bubble study"
during this fun little experiment
they will be looking to see
if i have a tiny hole in my heart
that never closed at birth
i kind of feel i am on a wild goose chase
but very thankful i guess
that they are checking every possible orfice
that exist within and on me...hehehe
so shall i just stay up on this here little fence
a wee bit more
or try and jump???
only time will tell
