February full snow moon~

Full Snow Moon

February Since the heaviest snow usually falls during this month,

native tribes of the north and east most often called February's full Moon the Full Snow Moon.

 Some tribes also referred to this Moon as the Full Hunger Moon,

 since harsh weather conditions in their areas made hunting very difficult.

i almost forgot

our little ones were away

and we bailed on going out and opted to snuggle up on the couch

to have a movie marathon

something i can not tell you when was the last time

it was just he and i with any movie we wished to see

but as it started a light caught my eye

well unfortunately there are just certain moments i can not resist

oh thank goodness patient is he

in the quiet of dark and the cloudiness of such colors

i stood in silence and took her all in

~such beauty she beholds~

52 projects...week 6~

http://52paintedhouseprojects.blogspot.com/

jane

started this little project for us to

 expand our minds...GROW...explore...

create...push our limits

 this week i had made something

and well life changes its course

and sometimes you just have to roll with it

as my week went along i noticed GROWTH

this is kind of a big deal because prior to these 3 situations

and how i delt with them

i would normally leave frustrated and ever so wishing i would have spoke up

and this week i did

such a SIMPLE thing to do

yet it can be difficult, especially for me

when it involves others and their talents

i never want them to be offended

or feel as if their efforts are less than

BUT

i accepted the mere fact that I am the one paying for these services

therefor I should be happy...

RIGHT

and

i walked away being quite pleased

and realized

NO harm was done on either side

february mornings~

what i have savored most this month

are the sunrises

 mornings...a sky filled

 with gorgeous shades of pink

glowing hues

and a few birdies heard

flying through the sky

one can only hope

 for what march will bring

i wonder if it could leave

any traces of green

~now wouldn't that be something to see~

Six Word Saturday~

http://www.showmyface.com/

~can it get any sweeter...nope!~

my husband and i snuck away for a few hours yesterday

and when we returned to pick up our little ones

this is what they had waiting for me

L♥VE

SUCH

SWEETNESS

a triple layer lemon custard filled cake

adorned with jelly beans and other little candies

i am usually the cake baker for both family and friends

so what a wonderful surprise that filled my heart with happiness

ps~ the toothpicks were to hold up the saran wrap!

a letter to me~

every year i write a letter to my little ones...i reflect upon the year that passed...so as i sat here this morning feeling a bit stale, nothing really to spark up and write...this came to mind

why not a letter to me

this is a fresh start to a new year that will pass, so i shall write ...

for every second we lose one another is brought into this world...there is an abundance of saddness and pain out there at the moment yet an overflowing amount of people celebrating a new life coming to be...it is the constant...something that no one can deny and i would guarantee no one will argue with the mere fact of life and death...why you wonder am i writing this on such a happy day...well this thought holds clear in my mind...we have suffered loss this past year and it is what eventually brought me here...

i watched a life unfold before my very eyes, i felt a soul longing to say goodbye...the months watching brought reality right forward...i could not hide...well i guess i could have but chose not...through all of that i walked away with a life changing mindset...

growth number one~ sometimes we are unaware of how much we can handle and endure...how strong our inner desires really are until we are faced with a choice...do you stand tall and muster up all that is in you or do you run away in fear? well i stood my ground...pulled courage and happiness from the depths of my inner being and was quite amazed at how strong of a person i truly was...i cared and supported beyond means i ever thought was possible for me...

growth two~ i learned and accepted defeat...through such suffering, emotions were running wild...mine included...there was not alot of together time and out of tiredness, hurting and frustration...emotions  consumed by fury...i learned from those moments my opinion not always need be heard...that i need to just BE...i need not analize and disect a situation...i learned we say things out of pain reguardless if hurtful or not...and it is ok to forgive and forget...move forward and not look back at that moment...accept...not just say but truly accept what sorry means...we are all at fault for that at one point in our lives...but mine were many...it was hard for me to let go of what had been said until i beat it over the head a thousand times until it absolutly became a pointless circle of nonsense...i have learned!

growth three~ we have ONE life...one shot at how we are going to live...we can not go back in time and change what once was...only move forward each day...i learned to let go of what once was and savor the memory of such...we can not live in the past...wishing...but only hope for what the future holds for us...though i have not let go of memories...i savor them in my mind and merely reflect upon such joyous times...thankful i have what is now...and embrace what i have each day and strive for what is to come...

growth four~ i am bolder...i have been taking lessons from many...not really...ok some...but learning to truly listen to people around me and learning what boundries are...i CAN set boundries and IT is a healthy mindset to hold...i have learned it is ok to say no...therefor i will not be walked on anymore!

 thats kind of some big GROWTH!

growth five~ there is so much I WANT TO DO...so instead of waiting for it to come to me...well i am HERE writing and sharing and trying things that make my world go round...things that makes my heart sing in happiness...i have been stepping outside that narrow hesitant quiet life i lived and trying my hand at new exciting things...if we do not push ourselves now...then WHEN!?! no one else can bring such satisfaction to our stirring being except oursleves...others just help fill the spaces around it..we all have to look within first and please that void...

growth six~ i am who i am...reguardless of what you think or feel...reguardless of what opinion or thought you have...i am ME...every year i walk stronger in this path...it is something that has been in me for a long time..i have learned even more to be true to myself...i am individual...unique...no one else the same...maybe similar but never the same...that is what makes us so special! i walk a different path than any in my family and friends...i choose to wear and do different things to my body that others shun their head...maybe a tad defiant...but truly for me and not what your eyes please...but mainly i have learned to not feel compelled alwasy justifing the why's...let those voice their opinion for whatever satisfaction it brings forth and really there is no reason i need to always rebuttle and back up my own thoughts...let it fly by...because they choose to remain narrow...petty...oh but NOT I.. will remeber to remain open minded and accepting...

growth seven~ i am trying hard to learn to balance a husband and children...its easy fo rme to care for my children and husband but as i said a day or so back i need to always remeber my marriage...nourish it...as our little ones are growing and even though i refer to them as my little ones well they are not so little...there will come a day when they are ready to spread their wings and soar through this life and what will remain is my husband and i...where will we be...MADLY IN LOVE...because i choose now to take a stand and make time for eachother without little ones with constantly with us...no guilt be held...big lesson to be accepting of...

so i guess my wish for this new year is to continually work towards becoming the person i want to BE and LIVE that life i am alwasy seeking...i wish to always grow in strength and wisdom as there is always so much to learn ...i wish to forever remain true to myself and in the end when the day comes i will not have regrets of...if only i did this...

because i can do it now...no limitations...

so as i end this

♥

i also WISH YOU the same....

♥

for me...its the little things~

yesterday afternoon was a day well spent

comfort of a warm friends home

conversations that were simple

light

no real deep thought

mere ramblings

a light yet hearty lunch of salad greens and roasted vegetables

the balance of spring and the satisfying feeling of winter

a delectable pumpkin pie cake to top of my tummy

and wonderful gifts

straight from the heart

~himalayan pink salt crystals~

i tried to get my hands on this a few weeks back but the store had sold out

ambrosia mulling spice

tea from a wonderful place we had visited in the fall

and a card that need no words to explain

her friendship is by far enough for me

and i am grateful each day that we have came to be

but its the little things

a gesture of sorts

when someone takes the extra step

that warms my heart

she thought of me

and brought joy to my day

thank you so dear little one

i am blessed

so today marks the end of a year

tomorrow i wake

and

welcome a new year

a new chance

to live my life

a day to be thankful

for what has been

for what is

and

for what lies ahead waiting for me

i look forward to all i have yet to see

all that remains unknown

paths to travel whether new or faithfully old

i remain

i am here

i feel blessed to have a chance at a another new day to come

Inspiration Avenue...Purple~

 

http://inspiration-avenue-team.blogspot.com/2010/02/weekly-challenge-purple.html

~PURPLE~

as our days are filled with dark and gray

with the occasional glimpse of mr. sun

i look out back and all i see

against the bare

is this burst of color

these little flowers have been a reminder

a symbol of hope

for what is soon to come

the gray will fade

and colors will bloom

the sky will explode with days of blue

so purple for the challenge

well this is all i see

everyday throughout the day

i sneak peeks

to put my soul at ease

they calm my inner being

soothe the crazy stirring

reminds me not to be restless

just at peace

for what i see...speaks to me

remember...you know what is to come and what will be 

Wishcasting Wednesday~

http://jamieridlerstudios.ca/wishcasting-wednesday-february-24?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+JamieRidlerStudios+%28Jamie+Ridler+Studios%29

What do you wish

to give yourself permission for?

how interesting...

yesterday morning my husband and i were talking about this upcoming weekend

we have a few events to celebrate

i asked if he did want to go out on saturday

and he said

"of course but you said we have no one to watch the little ones so i guess its a NO"

he then said

"at some point we are going to have to start doing something together"

"getting out without the kids"

i sat and listened

i HEARD his words

the yearning in his voice

i could not argue or deny

that what he just spoke

was ever so true

it took me a moment

and then i said

"i will do my best...it will be nice"

some ten plus years ago when our first little one came into this world

i was young

i was not prepaired to be a mama

but carrying this precious gift turned life my in a different direction

at that time there was not a whole alot to LIVE for

i was just living by the moment

making the most of my days

i did not fear what was to come

just anticipated the day i would see those eyes staring back at me

the day i could brush my hands upon this little one

since ones arrival

i never really looked back

i embraced my position

and hold dear to me calling

i adore my children

and the time i spend with them

there have been few moments that i have felt neglected by my own needs

there has always been a comfortable balance

my little ones and me

hhhmmm....now  you ask

what about you and him

aahh...this is where i faulter

i know and accept

i am aware

this is where the wish comes in to place...

~permission~

http://esoterickat.blogspot.com/2008/07/tuesdays-talent-fairies.html

it is easy to fall by the way side with the one you L♥VE

the one who you made a commitment to

the one who you plan all the days of your life with

i am there

as he will always be

but i guess i am guilty of taking our relationship for granted

nurturing together...for eachother...as L♥VED ones

our children can not deepen our relationship

only us...working to keep such alive

i, faerwillow wish to give myself permission to

take more time to be in MY relationship as a wife

to give more of myself in our relationship

and

create more time together

so that we can continue to thrive

and

help our l♥ve for eachother to always flourish

p.s.~

i did find a sitter

so we shall be celebrating lot's over the weekend together...

just he & i

words to ponder & a touch of shimmer~

 

josiphene wall

“Limitations live only in our minds.

But if we use our imaginations,

our possibilities become limitless.”

Jamie Paolinetti

all it took was some

shimmery metalics

and

sparkly glittery colored paints

and

one wee little one

can not get enough of painting their days away

this below is one wee little ones castle...IMAGINE

 i had to play a bit too

do you allow your imagination to run free? 

mail time...such a sweet treat~

one of mine went to get the mail

something one very much enjoys

me on the other hand...

up until lately wasn't something i looked forward to

not a highlight of my day

but on this day

one came running down the driveway

waving something in their hands

its fancy letters one yelled

beautiful painting & card by wrightstuff & her little one

lovely card from mother moon

i can not say enough of what joy it brings forth

receiving kind written words from another

but to top it off

receiving such lovely art as well

thank you two for spreading a bit of sunshine in my day

such a simple act

a  kind way

caring manner

to take a moment in your day

to send thoughful words on their merry way

i have written of this before

and can not express my feeling enough

of such joy this lost art brings

handwritten notes

what used to be just a normal way

of keeping in touch

with those in your life

far more personal

than a phone call

or email

such a pleasant surprise

to see a letter from thee

i wrote a post awhile back...

of how mother moon reminded us of the simple act of writing

to me

its a

a way to connect with others

brighten ones day

lift spirits when needed

offers blessings or shows appreciation

i have been attempting and so far succeeding

at writing letters by hand

something i was always fond of

but when life got busy

a wee little ones were added to the picture

this no excuse any should be

fell to the way side

i longed to try harder

and now i am

so as i posted about this before

i am filled with much delight

and

ask of you

if you ever so wish to receive a hand written hello

i would

greatly love

to ever do so

words to ponder~

http://images.elfwood.com/art/d/a/daliot/faerie_friends.jpg

“To the world

you may be just one person,

but

 to one person

 you may be the world.”

Brandi Snyder

such sweetness from others~

Pat~ over yonder

http://imagesofaphotogallery.blogspot.com/

ever so kindly

 passed this award on to me a few weeks ago...

(sorry for the delay in posting and sharing my gratitude)

i am in awe of her photography

and am delighted that i came to mind

thank you so for THINKING of me

she tantalizes you with such visual treats

my most favorite of her posts

~visual poetry week 1~

not only are her pictures heavenly

but the flowers and sweets are gorgeous too

the rules for accepting the sunshine award are not too difficult...

put the flower logo on your blog or within your post

pass the award onto 12 bloggers & link them within your post

let the nominees know about the award by posting on their blog

share the love & link to the person from whom you received the award

in the past few weeks

there have been some changes reguarding this award

"change is good"

so i am going to continue the lead from many of you out there...

some like and appreciate awards

and

others choose not to participate in such

fine either way!

 THERE are A FEW (♥ANGE♥) who changed the rules on this one

and i feel their actions speak loud

so

~to all i choose to stumble along with~

it is

simply because i find great joy

 in your art 

and 

your words written

scroll down

if you see someone you have never visited with

take a peek

i am sure you won't be dissapointed

ALL of these TALENTED ONES

bring forth happiness in small or large ways

so i offer this award to you who is reading...

don't be shy

swoop it up and place it on your blog

play by the rules

or continue along

its all up to you

~I am HAPPY because of YOU~

then ANOTHER surprise

when reading RYAN'S post

over yonder at

http://www.oldmansutton.com/

 

there is such a great depth of beauty that lies within him

a fearless nature

a way of communicating and expressing himself

that many withhold

wonderful words he has to share

i am honored you thought of me...

gratzi gratzi

 

 

The rules are:

 

1) Link back to the blog/blogger who nominated you.

2) Paste the picture of the award in your award post

3) Nominate bloggers you think deliver great comments to your blog

4) E-mail/post/tweet or do whatever you need to do to inform these bloggers they have been nominated for an award.

  

luthien~

 http://pimpandpaint.blogspot.com/

expresses herself through her beautiful imagination

 and entices you with such exquisite pieces of art

such beauty and thoughtfulness lie within her words

tammie lee

http://miztlee.blogspot.com/

she truly does just as her words are written

captures the essence and spirit among all that her eyes and lenses see

enrichening is she

and uplifting are her words she leaves

joanne may

http://joannemayillustration.blogspot.com/

though not around much

i am in awe of her creative mind

and adore her drawings and painting

l♥ve when she stops in for a visit

and graces me with her words

jane~

http://paintedhouse52.blogspot.com/

whether going through good or bad

she sees light

and spreads light

inannasstar~

http://inannasstar.blogspot.com/

a strong voice

with a great spirit that lies within her

never afraid to share

newmumover40~  

http://creatingpeacefulthoughts.blogspot.com/

always there to share insight

and leave compassionate words

and to each one of you who takes a moment to read my words

write words of encouragement

or just a mere hello

I DO...I DO

i truly appreciate

EACH and EVERY

♥

ONE

♥

of YOU

daily meditations~

as my day went on yesterday

i went in my room to read from a little book

ironic was my first thought as i began reading

if only i would have read for the day prior to posting yesterday

maybe my thoughts would have changed a bit

maybe i would have been more aware

of my feeling and accepting that it ok to leave behind

a relationship that is not serving me well

the ties that i hold are partially out of guilt

afraid to let go

leaving behind a relationship

though aware of how it wears on my family

guilty i can be

guilty i feel

but

after hearing all YOUR comforting and encouraging words

and

reading this

i can acknowledge i am not being in the wrong

being overly sensitive

but

thinking and making a healthy choice

though hard it may be

thought these were intersting words above to ponder

52 projects...week5~

http://52paintedhouseprojects.blogspot.com/

“Learn to be quiet enough

to hear the genuine within yourself

so that you can hear it in others.”

Marian Wright Edelman

this week i painted with my little ones

i l♥ved this silhouette of the little birdie in the tree

so i decided to try and cut out the background...

challenging as i misplaced my cutter

so tiny medical scissors at hand i cut as best as i could...

then added the words

~in the quiet of this day~

these words are very powerful to me

silence

 we learn so much from remaining quiet

we see and hear life

in such a different manner

“If I could define enlightenment briefly

I would say it is

''the quiet acceptance of what is.''”

Wayne Dyer

~may you sit in silence for a moment today~

frustration~

i was talking with a dear friend and husband the other day about life...about blogging...about people who fill my world...

http://arifee.unblog.fr/files/2007/08/465.jpg

i am at a point of frustration from...lack there of compassion...selflessness that others do not hold...worlds that only revolve around them...ones who for some time have been very close and apart of our daily lives...time passes by and colors unfold...i start to wonder how i never saw what truly lay within...it takes for for the ugliness to show...the repetative complaining...inconsistant carelessness...the poor me to drive into my every being like nails pinning me down...wearing and tearing at my soul...i am left mystified.

i feel we all travel down roads that we would rather not have choosen...the paths we've crossed darker than we've expected...walked along as if life is continually throwing stones...sat near the ending pondering what else will come...i have been there...i have experienced the likes of which...i have felt pain bursting through my every being...life slipping through my fingers like the sands of time...lost and scared of having no idea where to turn or which direction i should go...i have been and never wish to return to such...i am in no way perfect nor will i ever be but i accept and take responsibility for where i have gone... there are those that will sit and wait for more to come...wallowing in self pity and driving themselves further in to the gloom that lingers...and then there are those that acknowledge pain and suffering...endure and process yet choose at some point to pick themselves up along the way and try to change their course in a different direction...

i was sharing my thoughts with each and explained why i have enjoyed blogging so much...not just to share with others my thoughts or photography but to be surrounded by people who are constantly seeking better...trying to do more with their life...accepting faults...trying to conquer hurdles that have been thrown before them...being aware of their emotions they are exposing to us...sorting and figuring...i am left feeling gratitude as i have learned from many and been inspired to strive harder...push my limits even more...i try hard in my daily life to be aware of negative...if i have been nasty...hurtful or harmful...i reflect back upon my actions and keep a mental note to try harder the next time...approach situations with a different perspective...but there are just some who can not and will not look for another option..

.they are determined to remain as they are...its frustrating to me.

my husband said...blogging you have no connections or ties...you can leave one as you wish and move about...if you don't find positive energy or happiness or enjoyment you can move forward...there are no strings attached...you do not see these people on a day to day basis...face to face...its as you choose...if you feel like a visit a conversation you do as you wish...

his words are true in someways...and in others i had to disagree...there are connections that have been made and though i can not see you face to face...i am connected by words...

just trying to process the wholeness and beauty of what it is to be a friend and how you wish to surround yourself...do you try and continue to bring forth people who intensify your happiness...challenge you to greater heights or continue to surround yourself by those who are constantly weighing you down..mentally and physically?

my grandfather always said to me growing up

 your friends are a reflection of yourself

choose wisely as this is how the world will see you

Six Bird oops Word Saturday~

http://www.showmyface.com/

~in the quiet of this day~

the birds are making their way back home

some are sitting in silence

while others are heard signing their sweet songs 

crying out for spring

warmth is near to come

sitting in silence

such a peaceful thing

every so often i capture a moment tha leaves me speechless
beyond thrilled
this was taken on thursday
and i all i can say is
 L♥VE
L♥VE
L♥VE
this photo moment

words to ponder~

http://images.epilogue.net/users/flowerelfe/MoonMothFairyCSGyseman.JPG

“Reflect

upon your

present blessings

of which

every man

has many

not

on your

 past misfortunes,

of which

all men have some”

Charles Dickens

Inspiration Avenue...Reflection~

http://inspiration-avenue-team.blogspot.com/

~Reflection~

 reflections are all around us

we just need to slow down for a moment

and take the time to see...

the skies reflection in our rearview mirror

words to ponder~

“The unreal is more powerful

than the real,

because nothing is

as perfect as you can imagine it.

because its only

 intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs,

fantasies that last.

stone crumbles. wood rots.

people, well, they die.

but things as fragile as a thought,

a dream, a legend,

they can go on and on.”

imsocarly Chuck Palahniuk quotes

image~ http://www.fairybox.org/celest14.jpg

what lies beneath our tree~

outside beneath our tree
something spectacular
was discovered

Crocus (golden) - "Mirth."

There are two exceedingly pretty legends concerning the origin of the crocus.

According to Ovid, this flower was once a beautiful youth, who fell in love with the nymph Smilax, a dainty shepherdess, but was transformed into the golden blossom on account of his impatience in love. Some say that Smilax was changed into a yew-tree, others that she shared the fate of her too-ardent lover.

The other tradition asserts that where the god Zeus once lay down to rest upon Mount Olympus a bed of golden crocuses sprang up on the spot where he had reclined. Homer described how "The flaming crocus made the mountains glow." In company with many other flowers that constitute natural floral barometers, the crocus curls over its petals, folding them together at night-time, or on the approach of a shower. This performance was thought to be the act of the fairies who nestled inside the flowers, and pulled the petals round them like the curtains of a fairy tent. Hence they are sometimes called " fairy-bowers."

 Medicinally, the crocus was once considered most efficacious in cases of lung trouble and consumption.

Crocus (white) - "Youthful gladness."

The best-known Greek legend about saffron is the story detailing the tragedy of Crocus and Smilax: The handsome youth Crocus sets out in pursuit of the nymph Smilax in the woods near Athens. During a brief period of idyllic love Smilax is flattered by his amorous advances, but soon is bored by Crocus' attentions. After he continues to pursue her against her wishes, she resorts to bewitching him, transforming Crocus into a saffron crocus flower, with its radiant orange stigmas remaining as a faint symbol of his undying passion for Smilax.
The tragedy and the spice would be recalled later by Ovid...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/History_of_saffron

“ Crocus and Smilax may be turn'd to flow'rs,

And the Curetes spring from bounteous show'rs

I pass a hundred legends stale, as these,

And with sweet novelty your taste to please ”

 

Crocus (striped) - "Reconciliation," or " union."

To find the universal elements enough;

to find the air and the water exhilarating;

to be refreshed by a morning walk or an evening saunter;

to be thrilled by the

stars at night; to be elated over a bird’s nest or a wildflower in spring

these are some of the rewards of the simple life.

John Burroughs

In the same way, you were happy in spring,

With the half colors of quarter-things,

The slightly brighter sky, the melting clouds,

The single bird, the obscure moon-

The obscure moon lighting an obscure world

Of thing that would never be quite expressed,

Where you yourself were never quite yourself

And did not want nor have to be ...

unknown

There is something courageous about the tiny crocus.

Its flowers, blooming determinedly through the snow,

have the power to give the gardener the boost he needs to get through the last,

lingering days of winter.

Crocuses do one more thing

they inspire the gardener to leave the fireside

and go outdoors,

 long before spring is at his door.